A Tiny Woman With A Big Heart Achieving Her Goals

Why i do what I do

Every moment of my life has led me to where I am now, however a few major things happened along the way that deeply strengthened my drive for creating this business and following my passion of serving all beings of this earth. When I was 14, I was a camp counselor at a special needs camp in Illinois. My camper's name was Lisa, a fifty year old woman living with cerebral palsy. When I looked into Lisa's eyes I saw the world through another lens. A lens that was pure, authentic and true. Although she didn't have the ability to live an able body life, she found reasons to smile, laugh and enjoy the presence of those around her. She made me see that life isn't always fair but if you have a heart full of love and light then nothing can shake your core, no matter what kind of hurdles you face. This was one of my first realizations that our perspective of life is the only thing we truly have control over. Little did I know that a year later these teachings would hit me even harder in the heart. 

Going into my freshman year of high school, I felt as though the whole world was ahead of me and I was ready to take on whatever high school had to offer me. The first boy that ever showed interest in me was a senior on the football team. It felt like a dream to have someone so popular show interest in me, almost feeling like I was living a romantic comedy in my own reality. One night reality came crashing in; I was raped by this so called "Prince Charming". My innocence, virginity and trusting heart was stripped from my core. I instantly fell into a dark space inside of myself. The light that once burned so bright inside was dimmed by pain, betrayal and abuse. I dealt with heavy depression and anxiety however most people just assumed it was typical teenage angst; little did everyone know, I was hurting so badly that I couldn't suppress it. I stopped caring about my body, sleeping around and drinking excessively because I felt as though that was the only way I could feel alive or wanted. Majority of my friends and family never knew what happened to me because I had convinced myself that I somehow was to blame for innocently believing this teenage boy cared about me. To make me fearful of speaking out, this boy and his peers began making fun of my appearance, telling me to burn in a fire and even relating my likeness to Dobby, the elf from the Harry Potter series. Even after he graduated, many of my peers continued on his legacy of being mindless, hurtful teenagers. It was as if no matter what I did, I could never move forward from the immense pain I experienced from letting that boy into my heart.

I knew that I was worthy of feeling real joy and love again but I didn’t have the tools to let go of my pain properly. I was so angry and held on to the trauma I experienced at home and at school. After high school, I went to Indiana University and, to me, that was my ticket to finding myself again, the blissful ball of energy that never stopped smiling or loving her life. In the span of four years, I found my self love, community, and bliss again. I camped out often, travelled lots and learned about different mindfulness techniques to help myself heal. I always knew I wanted a job that focused on the betterment of individuals and communities and thats how I discovered my major, Outdoor Recreation, Parks and Human Ecology. From that moment forward, I hit the ground running using recreation and leisure as radical forms of healing. I kept feeling like I was given this challenging, painful roller coaster of a life because I could always see my bliss beyond my pain and my heart was so ready to help others see the light at the end of their dark roads too.

I can honestly say that Mother Nature, Reiki, Yoga, and mindfulness techniques have truly transformed and expanded my mind, body and spirit. There are not many programs that offer the exact services that I want to provide so I created my own business where I can serve every kind of person in a way that is beneficial to them. The business name, logo and mission all come from tuning into my higher self and purpose. My life still encounters pain and challenges but not in the way it used to; I am accepting, strong, optimistic and grounded in myself, having a resilience and drive like never before. I have never been happier and more free to live my bliss than I am right now. I want to be here for you in whatever way best serves you; we are all capable of living a life that has an abundance of bliss when we simply allow ourselves to feel and experience life fully again. Take your power back, reclaim your strength and realize you are in the driver's seat of your life. I promise you my friend, you won't regret diving into this journey of true embodiment.